I can't seem to make you mine - Clientele

I’ve been listening to this song “I can’t seem to make you mine” by Clientile, and at first I was swooning because it was on the OST of The Lake House (one of my favorite movies of all time!). The melody made me think of autumn or spring nights when it rains at night. How comforting it is when I’m at home, freshly showered and sipping on a cup of tea, or coffee. Reminds of the 70s too, not that I lived in that decade (born in the 80's baby!).I searched it on youtube to see if I can get a version with the lyrics, and this is just one of those songs that made me go, huh? There is a strong hint of surrealism in the figurative language used here. All that just to say "I can't seem to make you mine".

Change...is good!

I've been thinking about change these past few weeks based on conversations I've had with the Rat, which should not be confused with a character in Haruki Murakami's novel, A Wild Sheep Chase. He made me think about change in a deeper level, not just identifying what needs to be changed or how to change them, but also why I should change them.

I was complaining to him as usual about how I am always the one organizing to get together with friends always the one who calls someone to hang out. Which is probably not entirely true but at that point it's how I felt. In a dramatic statement I told him I will have to change this and see how much they all miss me when I stop calling.

He told me I was wrong and that I shouldn't change that about me because it's part of who I am and it's not a bad thing. Although he didn't say it, and we didn't expound on it anymore, I extended this idea to other things that makes me, well, me. If I change aspects of myself, would it make a better me, or a lesser me?

This became my guiding principle in making changes. Will this enrich my way of life? I decided to start with my writing, which eventually spills on this blog.

I decided to write more and edit things I've written that I thought could be better. Which meant that those labeled "fiction" might be deleted or overhauled and reposted. I might even translate the tagalog blogs to enrich my language switching abilities. Whatever catches my fancy.

You may have noticed some lesson plans. They are modified to fit the classrooms I've taught in the past two years. I'm going to post more soon. I just felt like I've been holed up in the comfort of my classmates, colleagues, teachers and students that I neglected to share bits of myself and what I've learned. The past school year was a whirlwind, enriching CRAzy experience.

I will continue to post things that interest me: quotes, pictures, videos, songs, poetry, stories, reviews and of course thoughts about LOVE and it's many manifestations.

With that I leave you an "Updated Version of Me" by KC Concepcion. After all, there is a song for my every move:-)

Inside Out- Sara Bareilles

"Inside Out"

I've been winding
Down the same road for days
I've seen the coastline
Going both ways
Some days are perfect
And some simply could not get worse
Some days it's all worth it
And some days this life is nothing but a curse

And I wonder who will break first

I am small
I feel like no more than nothing at all
But when I lose sight of daylight
And my darkness falls
I'll be strong
And if not now it won't be long
From when I lose sight of daylight
And my hands are weak
And my soul is tired
Oh, I'll give my love from the inside out
From the inside out

Little spirit
Now don't you desert me now
I know I don't always hear it
You don't always speak so loud
And I'm not willing
To simply lay down my soul for this
It may be all that I'm giving
But take my love for what it is

I am small
I feel like no more than nothing at all
But when I lose sight of daylight
And my darkness falls
I'll be strong
And if not now it won't be long
From when I lose sight of daylight
And my hands are weak and my soul is tired
Oh, I'll give my love from the inside out

Take your best shot
Here I stand, heart in hand
And fearless I'm not
But I am what I am
And I know what I'm not
And I know enough to know it's never
Gonna be much more than weather
You can't drive me away
When it's only rain
On the inside
It's only rain
From the inside
It's only rain
From the inside
It's only rain
From the inside
From the inside out
I am small
From the inside out
I am small

Responsible- By Sara Bareilles

"Responsible"

Bound for the blessing
You wouldn't see it coming
I keep you guessing
Watch while you come undone

You were an island
No one would dare to tread upon
I came in like the wise men
Ask you to take my gift of love

Hold me responsible
It's all my fault, I want
You to hold me any way you can
Hold me accountable
It's all my fault, I want
You to hold me any way you can

Careful confessions
Can't scare you with my crime
I learned my lesson
Love you a little at a time

Losing my patience
Getting acquainted with the edge
Ready and waiting
Happy to stand convicted

Hold me responsible
It's all my fault, I want
You to hold me any way you can
Hold me accountable
It's all my fault, I want
You to hold me any way you can

I can't change you
When you won't change yourself
See you slowly becoming someone else
I can't blame you for the strength you lack
Scared to give me what you may not get back

Hold me responsible
It's all my fault, I want
You to hold me any way you can
Hold me responsible
It's all my fault, I want
You to hold me any way you can
Hold me accountable
It's all my fault, I want
You to hold me any way you can
Anyway you can

*****
COMMENTARY:

Another great song from Sara Bareilles. Why do I think it's great? Well, because it captures a snipet of my life, I feel like this song is for me in some way. Very self-centered but I believe that is how most people hear the songs they come to enjoy and love. It reverberates to them, resonates to their deepest longings.

Taking Chances

Magical!

Call and Answer - BNL

Urong-Sulong

Ah, another fun little ditty that reminded me of puberty:-) Regine Velasquez is one of those singers who shaped my generation. This song "Urong-Sulong", directly translated means, "backward-forward", is my favorite song of her. It's also one of her early songs. If you will notice the upbeat tone, it's a signature of the late 80's and 90's filipino pop songs that I like so much. Here she talks about someone who is hesitating (hence the backward-forward thing). She also reassures this person/guy that he must not be shy or hesitant because she likes him too.
I'll post the lyrics later!

Maybe!

A little-known fact about me is that I always like Randy Santiago's songs. He is an actor, singer, composer, and got really famous in the 80's when he used to have a show called "Lunch Date" which is like an early prototype of popular noon time shows.
This song "Siguro" (Maybe/Probably) is my favorite because they lyrics are funny. The song is about this guy/person who is asking a girl if she had a fight with her sweetheart/boyfriend. He keeps saying it's probably better if he is her boyfriend. He proposed some suggestions while promoting himself as better than her boyfriend. He does this in his typical funny way.
If you can understand Tagalog, I hope you enjoy the humor of this song. If not, come back in the next few weeks because I might have the translations then:-)

Ein, zwei, drei, vier!

Easy as 1, 2, 3, 4!

Isa, dalawa, tatlo, apat!

Naruyagon ako kan Feist :-)

First train home - Imogene Heap

First Train Home - Imogene Heap

I've got to get on it) (3x)

Bodies disengaged, our mouths are fleshing over.
It's just an echo game, irises retreating
to ovals of white.
The urge to feel your face
And blood rushing to paint my handprint
A Frisbee one by one
Your vinyl on lamanent
Desperate for some kind of contact.

First train home, I've got to get on it (3x)
To Catch, to catch, catch catch catch.
First train home, I've got to get on it (3x)
First Train home

Temporal deadzone where clocks are barely breathing
Yet no one cares to notice for all the yelling
All night clamor to hold it together.
I want to play don't wait forms in the hideaway
I want to get on with getting on with things
I want to run in fields, paint the kitchen
And love someone
And I can't do any of that here, can I?

First train home, I've got to get on it (3x)
First Train home

So what? You've had one too many.
So what? I'm not that much fun to be with
So what? You've come silly hatter
So what? I didn't want to come here, anyway.

What matters you, doesn't matter, matter to me.
What matters to me, doesn't matter, matter to you.
What matters to you, doesn't matter, matter to them.
What matters to them, doesn't change anything.


Got to get on it first train home.
Got to get on it first train home

First train home I've got to get on it
(I've got to get on it)
To catch, to catch, catch-catch, catch.
(First train home)
First train home I've got to get on it
First train home.
(First train home)

To go, to go, to go
Get, get, get, get
Out, out, out, out
Now, now, now, now

Did you know that she is also 1/2 of Frou Frou? Ah another hypnotic song from Imogene.

I got you - Train

Ah glorious new song from Train. Thanks to Valerie for the info. Really cool song. Makes me miss my concert going days.

I got you - Train

Hey, did you hear about the one that got away, they say he looked left,
she turned right-meant to be together but not that night,
it’s when fates running late, we tend to make mistakes,
we go round and round from love to love
it’s either way too much or not enough
gimme lazy days with nothing better to do
than singin oh black water keep on rolling while I wait for you
I don’t care if it rains, I’ll be just fine,
I’m leaving the ghosts behind until I got you I got you
you’re the sun through my window, warming my skin Oh you,
I got you
hey then when one of them was taken, the other one was waiting
for the next big thing
To bring them to the gates of heaven or maybe just late night in Vegas
It’s true that’s what we do when were going down swingin-
then coming up singing the blues
Wearing out my shoes-chasing new faces to get to you-
driving home on a summer night
Singing old black water keep on rolling- till the time is right
I don’t care if it rains, I’ll be just fine sit back enjoy the ride
until I got you I got you you’re the sun through my window
warming my skin, oh you I got you Like Sonny and Cher
Except I’ll be there for you , I got you
Let old black water bring us together – old black water keep on rolling
Mississippi moon won’t you keep on shining on me
Wanna hear some funky Dixieland
Pretty Mama come on take me by the hand, wanna hear some funky Dixieland
Pretty mama come on take me by the hand
Here she comes, here she comes I got you I got you
You’re the sun through my window warming my skin oh you
I got you like Sonny and Cher you know I’ll be there for you
I got you let old black water bring us together
You I got you, I got you , I got you baby
By the hand hand take me by the hand
Pretty mama dance with your daddy all night long wanna hear some
Funky Dixieland pretty mama come and take me by the hand

Postcards from Italy - Beirut

Ah, such a grand song. Makes me think of good friends far away and not so far away. When will I go to Italy and the other countries touching the Mediterranean Sea. Only time will tell. The adventure continues.

1963 - Rachael Yamagata

One of my favorite songs! Well I really like Rachael's bangs and I even tried to sport it a few months ago. The video is nice too, shot using a 35mm camera I think. Made me think of Arturo, an 11-year-old aspiring director. I really hope he discovers this kind of camera and make really nice videos one day.

Someone's Waiting for you

Someone's waiting to love you - by Lea Salonga

Be brave little one
Make a wish for each sad little tear
Hold your head up though no one is near
Someone's waiting for you
Don't cry little one
There'll be a smile where a frown used to be
You'll be part of a love that you see
Someone's waiting for you

Refrain:
Always keep a little pray'r in your pocket
And you're sure to see the light
Soon, there'll be joy and happiness
And your little world will be bright
Have faith little one
'Til your hopes and your wishes come true
You must try to be brave little one
Someone's waiting to love you
Always keep a little pray'r in your pocket
And you're sure to see the light
Soon, there'll be joy and happiness
And your little world will be bright
Have faith little one
'Til your hopes and your wishes come true
You must try to be brave little one
Someone's waiting to love you